Tears I have not seen in my lifetime
rolled down his eyes
when we said hello.
A man so strong, so proud, so loving,
reduced to a bunch of tubes.
He almost lost his voice to cancer,
but he willed himself to speak on.
When his heart failed him again, and again,
he ordered it had to beat.
And shot himself with insulin to live.
Now,
His words refuse to take life,
his eyes try to articulate them,
even as they weep in pain, and helplessness.
He lifts his feeble hand,
bound by bandages,
to draw a line across his forehead.
It's all written in our destiny, he seems to say.
I used to be cynical ,
when told destiny is a fact.
Am not sure I believe it exists, still.
Maybe.
The arrogance and optimism of youth have finally bid me good bye.
Am trying to hold on to faith, and trust.
I wish I could hold on to you too Tata,
but I know you must go.
Tata, go in peace.